A Cataract of Spirit


Today, I was diagnosed with an early cataract in my left eye.  A cataract, according to the WebMD Cataract Health Center, is a, “painless, cloudy area in the lens of the eye that blocks the passage of light to the retina. The retina is the nerve layer at the back of the eye. The nerve cells in the retina detect light entering the eye and send nerve signals to the brain about what the eye sees. Because cataracts block this light, they can cause vision problems.”

Apparently, they afflict mainly older people, those with sun damage or an eye injury.  I’ve had neither sun damage nor eye injury.  I refuse to believe that I’m one of the “older people,” at fifty-years-old.  My mother, at 75-years-old, had cataract surgery. 

Louise L. Hay, in her book, You Can Heal Your Life, writes that cataracts are a physical expression of one’s “inability to see ahead with joy.  Dark future.” 

Can you imagine?  Me not being able to see ahead with joy?  Anyone who knows me would laugh out loud at this thought. 

What if it’s true, though?  Has my outlook changed so dramatically over the years that all I can see ahead is dread and sadness?  It is possible that I’m afraid there is no light ahead for me? 

My hope is that, according to Ms. Hay, cataracts can be alleviated by developing a new thought pattern, utilizing the phrase, “Life is eternal and filled with joy.  I look forward to every moment.”

And, there it is.  There may be some truth to what she wrote, because after I wrote that phrase, my first thought was, “How?”

There is a part of me that frets about the future and what it will bring.  Both at home and with my work, these phrases evoke images of struggle, drudgery, and dissatisfaction.  What I don’t understand is why that is? 

I love my husband, even though marriage can sometimes ask more of me than I think I can give.  I am thrilled to be doing the work I am, even though the financial situation it creates is challenging, at best. 

I suppose, somehow, I’m going to have to change my perception.  It will be interesting to see how I eventually do that. 

Wish me luck!

Looking ahead

___________________

Hay, Louise L., You Can Heal Yourself,  Carlsbad, CA., Hay House, Inc., 1999

Photo of cataract:  http://www.webmd.com/eye-health/cataracts/cataracts-topic-overview

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